"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren."
Romans 8:28-29
"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will recieve it, and it will be yours."
Mark 11:24
My friend, have you ever had one of those times in your life where you just sit down and say "Why me?" Or, how about "There is no way that will ever happen to me?" I have thought both--and lived both.
Back in July of this year (1999), I hit probably the lowest point of my entire 28-years of existence. But, I will tell you this--I MADE IT THROUGH!!
"How?", you may ask? Because of my belief and full trust in the Lord, Jesus Christ. He has been my rock and my fortress in this time of my life and he has shown me things I never thought would happen. I have been through trials that I thought I wouldn't make it through, but with His help and encouragement, I made it.
Now, I will not go into full detail of my trials, but I will say that it was between myself and my husband. I am a Christian, but my husband was not. He was an alchoholic and very unbelieving. Note though, please, that there was NEVER any physical abuse or anything of that nature. It was more of a psychological thing.
When my husband confessed to me the things he had done, we were 300 miles from home in Delaware. I just wanted to die. How could this happen to me? What was he thinking? What about the children? I had to spend a week in Pennsylvania with his family, pretending that nothing was wrong. I cried the whole way home, trying to figure out what I was going to do when we got there--Would I stay through this, or would I go home to Oklahoma?
"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." John 16:33
I had to go to work the first night that we were home. I work a 12-hour night shift at a pharmecutical company. Since we have to wear hearing protection and it is very loud in the manufacturing room, (it's hard to talk to others in there) all I could do was think. I spent that whole night just about in prayer to God. I had the strong feeling that satan was trying to come against my family with a vengance. The next morning when I got home, my husband was supposed to go to work. Something woke me up about 11:00 that morning and he was in the living room, just sitting there.
He knows how much I oppose having any kind of firarm in the house. I had no idea that he had borrowed a rifle from a friend of his. Now, weather or not he was going to use it, I have no idea. He proceeded to tell me that he had tried to end his own life, but something held him back--he couldn't do it. He started crying then and told me he didn't know what to do. At the time, I didn't have a church home, but I knew that there were a few good ones in town. He called the pastor of one that I suggested and we went to talk to him.
After explaining the situation to him, together, I left the room to be with the kids. He accepted Christ and was saved!! We went home and he told me he had said aweful things about me, but that he knew he had been wrong and asked me to forgive him for everything he had done. Now, I could not have done that by myself. It took God's strength and guidance to help me through this, but I have forgiven him, just as God has forgiven him for all that he has done.
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and ther shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are all passed away" Revelation 21:4
Never have I seen a more complete change in a person. Not only in Michael, but in myself also. All the alchohol is gone from the house--he no longer has the urge or taste for it. We listen to Christian radio all the time, rarely ever turning on the TV. We have dinner at the table as a FAMILY--no more kids in the kitchen and adults in the dining room. We study and pray together, lifting each other up and helping each other through the tough times.
If you have never asked Christ into your life, please, click the "Plan of Salvation" link below. If you have any questions, feel free to contact me, and I will gladly pray with you and answer your quearies. He truly does make a difference in one's life--I have lived it and seen it first hand.
There is peace for you, my friend. If you are suffering, He is there. If you are hurting, He is there. If you think you can go no further, He is there. He is always there for anyone who seeks His face. He is there, gently knocking. Won't you let Him come in today?
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